I started this post months ago, rewrote it, then trashed it.
Now, I wish it was still around.
It was about how my first love had fallen in love. . . with my good friend.
It was about how I thought this one would “stick.”
And it has. . .
They’re engaged.
I’m happy?
It’s an odd feeling.
I love him. I love her.
I love them?
Probably. . .
It’s just, this hits a nerve because 2 guys I dated in the not-so-distant past got married this year. . . ON THE SAME DAY.
Both of these relationships began quickly after we spilt, and both of them got engaged and married super fast. SUPER FAST.
Just like the union of my two dear friends. SUPER FAST.
I guess these icky feelings I’m dealing with come from the inner jerk yelling, “Why not you?” “What’s wrong with you?” “No, really what is wrong with you?!” “If you hadn’t broken his heart in the 8th grade, this would be you!” “If you were thinner, this would be you!” “If you were artsy-er, this would be you!” “If. . . .”
Stupid jerk.
Whit
Damned Scribbling Woman 
This and others like it should be in the “PMS Posts” category. . .
I really am happy for my friends and their new journey. It’s just a sentimental feeling when your first love moves on. I couldn’t be luckier that he moved on with such a wonderful lady.
Truly.
Wit
Comment by witmurph — May 13, 2011 @ 1:43 PM |
I love the honesty. Just so you know ALL, I’m NOT kidding when I say ALL, of my exes are currently still with the girls they dated right after me. Some of them got married, some of them moved away with each other, some of them even dated Natalie’s after me! WEIRD! and those feelings you have are completely normal. I was like what the F*ck is wrong with me. I thought that I would never meet anyone that would put up with my BS and ground me, yet still make me happy. I actually went to a Medium (after Royce and I broke up) and I didn’t even have to ask her if i would end single and alone with a ton of cats…she just told me “don’t worry you wont end up a spinster” haha
anyways. love your blog. thank you for entering in my giveaway. this is me entering in yours. ALSO I still haven’t sent you a Valentine… I haven’t forgot. I’m not sure you even remember, but I said would send you some of my art. AND I will. I think I still have your address. Maybe not… just send it to me anyway.
natalie.marie.tracy@gmail.com
Comment by natalie — May 20, 2011 @ 9:30 PM |
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